Frustration

artist unknown

"i am confident i am over you. so much that some
mornings i wake up with a smile on my face and
my hands pressed together thanking the universe
for pulling you out of me. thank god i cry. thank
god you left. i would not be the empire i am today
if you had stayed.

but then.

there are some nights i imagine what i might do if
you showed up. how if you walked into the room
this very second every awful thing you’ve ever
done would be tossed out the closest window and
all the love would rise up again. it would pour
through my eyes as if it never really left in the first
place. as if it’s been practicing how to stay silent
so long only so it could be this loud on your arrival.
can someone explain that. how even when the love
leaves. it doesn’t leave. how even when i am so
past you. i am so helplessly brought back to you.”

— rupi kaur, milk and honey